So I am a little late with posting this. I got my wig in the mail about 3 weeks ago. I have been kind of busy with other things so I have not posted here in a few days and i have been meaning to post a blog about this wig but just have not had the chance. anyways here it is in all it's glory! Resting beautifully atop my round little head!
TA DA!
I apologize for the shitty webcam pic but it's all good right? I was too lazy to take pictures with my real camera. Anyway when I purchased this on Ebay I was not too sure what to expect. I always hear how it's not a good idea to buy wigs or clip on hair online because ya never know how thick or thin the hair is gonna be. Well this wig has the perfect thickness. The hairs are not too thin nor are they too thick. The wig is comfortable to wear and does not seem to fall off easily. Then again I am usually very stiff when I am wearing it so yeah that might be the reason why it has not fallen off yet. On the inside there is a little strappy thingy that you can use to make sure that it does not fall off but idk how to use the strappy thingy so I don't. I also bought a wig cap to go with it. The wig cost me 16 dollars and the cap cost me 2 bucks. The ebay seller I bought it from ships all of there wigs for free so my subtotal was around 18 bucks or so. Not bad huh? The wig looks like real hair but it is actually synthetic. It totally does not look like a wig either when you wear it. some people actually thought I got extensions online because that's just how perfect this wig is! Here is the link to the store that bought it from. This link will direct you to the wig I purchased. As you can see it comes in many colors. Also this seller has other styles as well.
I feel bad for kids these days, all of the cartoons on tv are really lame and stupid and the toys... it's like wtf? bratz dolls and zhu zhu pets? REALLY?! LAME! I prolly post too many nostalgic blog entires but ya know what? FUCK IT! I like to think back on the past a lot more than I prolly should because my present sucks and I am unsure about my future. I like to look back on my childhood because just like everyone else, I wish I could go back in time so that I could appreciate it more. When we are kids we all wanna grow up overnight and then once we become adults it's like.. "fuck! THIS IS NOT what I had in mind!" I had a lot of favorite tv shows and toys and so yeah.. here is a post dedicated to all of the things I loved so dearly.
Virtual Pets!
I think everyone had at least one of these. The first one I ever got was a Giga pet. I begged my mom for one and one day while her and my aunt and my cousins were at the mall, my mom finally ended up purchasing me one! I remember that both me and my cousin Val got one that day. I picked the dog and she picked the cat. The reason why I wanted one of these so badly is because when I was a kid I was OBSESSED with dogs. I wanted one so badly. I begged my mom to buy me one but because we lived in a du plex and because the majority of the time I stayed with my great grandma (who hated animals!) I was not able to have one. So naturally I wanted the next best thing! A pixelated doggy! I honestly do not know who came up with this idea but they were a fuckin genius! As time when one I also got a tamagotchi, a knock off virtual pet that I found, a digimon (those were so cool because you could link them up and fight them!). a pikachu virtual pet (that was the first gift my step dad ever bought for me!), oh and a talking nano! dude those were the best and like if you had a talking nano all the other kids at school were jelly of you because they were the most expensive virtual pets out there. I actually had mine up until a few years ago. I lost it when I moved to San Diego :[
Interactive sound books
OH MY GOD THESE WERE THE BEST THING EVER! I loved to read when I was a kid but like when they started to add sound to books I was like HELL YES! I used to get at least two of these every year for my birthday and christmas. I remember I had one of the lion king!
SKIP IT!
Fisher Price little people and school bus
I had this and all the people that came with it! I used to build buildings with the wooden blocks that I had and I would pretend that the kids inside were going on a field trip to places like Greece and Paris haha. I had a weird imagination.
POGS!
Ok i admit I have no clue how to play with these at all. I just thought they looked cool and I remember that a pack of pogs always usually came with this thick plastic pog that had a holographic sticker on top of it. Can someone out there explain to me how to actually play with these? I think they need a comeback!
Littlest Pet Shop!
I had all of the pieces in this picture haha and then some! Yeah this toy is still around but it is not cool anymore because the pieces are not actually that little anymore. Just like what happened to polly pocket, the company started to make the pieces bigger because they were a chocking hazzard I assume. The little animals that you had to purchase speratley had really cool features. For example, the chameleon used to change colors if you held him in your hand for a few minutes,
Really it was the warmth from your hands that would change him from a dark green to a light green so you could also hold him up to a lamp and get the same effect.
another cute piece that you could purchase was these two love birds! You could take the lid of the cage off if you wanted to. and the bottom half was rotatable so you could make them kiss my rotating the bottom back and forth. It is kind of hard to explain without a video. -_- sorry if I still had mine I would demonstrate.
Polly Pocket
I thing bit sized toys were really popular back then. These are what the original Polly Pocket toys look like. You could buy a compact and each one was different inside. I actually had the one in the center of this picture. It was a fairy themed compact. Usually each compact came with one polly pocket doll and a pet! I remember I had several compacts. I surprisingly never lost any of the dolls. I remember that over time the faces of the dolls would rub off because of over play, i guess they used cheap paint on these things.
Moving on to cartoon! It would take me all day long to list all of them and a description so I am just going to post screen caps of my top 5!
SAILOR MOON!
Courage the cowardly dog
JUMANJI! Yeah they made an animated series haha
The Rugrats
and last but not least
MOST EPIC THEME SONG EVER! ( I think the guy that did Gary's voice actually sang this song.. but I could be wrong, he sounds like him though haha)
Yesterday as I was checking my email on yahoo I came across an article about a 15 year old girl in New York City named Amanda Diane Cummings. Amanda took her life about three weeks ago. She died in the hospital after throwing herself in front of a school bus while she was carrying a suicide note in her hand. Now I was going to do a video blog about this but for some reason my macbooks cam will not let me make a video that is longer than two minutes for some reason. Anyway I just want to share my thoughts on bullying and I hope that teenagers read this blog post and seek out the help that they need.
I viewed some of Amanda's pictures and she seemed like a happy normal teenage girl in all of them for the most part. Of course we all know that cheerful smiles and cute posses can mask the pain that someone is going through. Cummings was heavily bullied in school and even had her possessions stolen from her by her bullies. I also understand that there was some cyber bullying action going on on facebook as well. I can no express how angry I get when I read articles about teens that kill themselves. I myself was heavily bullied in 10th and 12th grade. I went to high school in a very rural area both of these years and of course, the fact that I was a hispanic, alt. girl pretty much meant that I was a prime candidate for ridicule. Every day in class i was subjected to some sort of harassment. Girls would throw paper at me. people would constantly remind me how ugly I was, one girl in my biology class even called me a retard, I honestly think she thought I was mentally ill. That hurt me the most. I would run to my principle and teachers and tell them that I was being bullied but of course none of them every really cared. I always got the same response " Well I will talk to so and so, call them down to my office and talk to them about this issue". All that would ever happen after that is that the person would get a "stern: talking to and then they were told to never do it again. Of course after they were sent to the office the bullying became worse because then they had a reason to be angry with me. I got them in trouble, I was a snitch, so now there would be no mercy for me.
I eventually started to abuse nyquil because I wanted to find away to forget about things for a while. Everytime someone at school would hurt me I would come home and drink a cup and a half of it and sleep until the next day would come. I just wanted to die and I felt like if I did no one would miss me, not even the boyfriend that I had at the time. I think the most hurtful thing was that my boyfriend and my friends rarely if ever stuck up for me. The only time someone would stick up for me was when I would start to cry in class. That was the most embarrassing part, is when people made me cry. I often started to pretend I was sick so that I would not have to go to school. My mom noticed that I would often come home crying. She ended up calling the principle and of course, he did not care much at all. But in 12th grade he all of a sudden started to care.. not towards my benefit however....
Sadly no major action ever takes place until one of the two things happens, the child that was being bullied takes their life OR the child that was being bullied ends up taking a gun to school and shooting all of their bullies. Then bullying becomes an issue. Only after it is too late to do anything about it. When I was in 12th and 10th grade I ended up fighting two of my bullies. I did not get in trouble for the first fight but my senior year I ended up getting suspended for a whole week. I was busted in the middle of that fight, a very large office assistant grabbed me by my arm, dragged me into the principles office and began to tell everyone that I violently attacked another student. I was crying at this point. I cried so much that I honestly thought I was going to throw up. The principle looked at me in disgust. I sat in the chair in front of his desk and was screaming and crying and he just gave me a cold stare. As if he was saying I DO NOT CARE. He automatically started to put the blame on me and told me that my actions were inexcusable. The other girl did not even get sent to the office and here I sit, getting written up a suspension letter for 7 days plus saturday school. I was automatically sent to in school suspension and held there the whole day until the end of the day when my parents had to come pick me up because I was not allowed to ride the bus home. My parents were furious, not with me though, they were furious with the school administrators. My parents wanted to know why they were notified at the end of the day about this issue when it had happened first thing in the morning. My assistant principles excuse? "We had a pep rally today and things have been very busy around the school because of it" She began to tell my parents what happened, she told them that I tried to fight a teacher when he was restraining me which was not true, He claimed that I kicked him on purpose. Again not true. My dad asked what had caused the fight. I told him that the girl had thrown a hard object at the back of my head. My dad then told the principle that if that would have happened to him he would have punched someone's lights out as well. However the fact that I fought back was not seen as self defense, Apparently schools like to teach that all forms of violence are bad, even when it is in self defense. So basically what we are teaching kids is that if someone walks into your house with a gun and starts shooting at you, you should just stand there and await death instead of going to the closet and grabbing your shotgun and firing back. Anyways to make a long story short, in the end I was seen as the "bully" and the other girl walked away scott free without any kind of disciplinary action what so ever. And as far as my "punishment" goes, being suspended for 7 days was what I wanted anyways, what kid doesn't want to stay home and listen to music all day long and not have to go to school to get picked on some more?
I think the worst form of bullying would be the kind that goes on online. Cyberbullying is a mass form of bullying and everyone on the internet can feel free to chime in. I myself have been a victim of this form of bullying. I especially remember this one time on myspace (back when people still used myspace) when a girl that bullied me wrote a blog post about me. She told everyone that I was "a dirty Indian and that I needed to go back to the country I cam from because I was nasty". One I am not indian, two I am not dirty, and three I was born in America. Had I seen something like this written about me today I would just shake it off an not care and find it funny. However when you are a teenager you re act to things very differently. I remember going to my room and crying the whole entire night. I cried until I started to feel sick. I will never forget that night even till this day. Cyberbullying is very hard to control even thought there have been laws passed that try to prevent and stop it from happening.
I think the worst part about bullying is the fact that the bullies often times do not know how much they are damaging a person. Till this very day I still feel worthless and ugly because of what people told me in 10th grade. Bullying will give someone self esteem issues for the rest of their life. Everyone likes to go by the old adage "sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me" but this is simply not true. Words do hurt. Sometimes they even hurt more than psychical damages. I feel like I should somehow become a part of the anti bullying movement but I am not exactly sure how I can help. I am not a famous person and most of the time people do not even care about what I have to say.
I just want to leave a message out to any teens that are going through this right now before I end this post. I want you to realize that half the time bullies are extremely jealous of you. It's either because you are smarter than them, prettier than them. or they just feel threatened by you because of their own insecurities. No one should ever make you feel like you are less of a person because your nose is not the perfect size, or because your body is not "perfect" or because you are from a different ethnic background than they are. If you ever feel like killing yourself please just do not do it. Take a movement to realize what taking your life will do to not only you, but your family and your friends. Things do get better, sometimes it takes a while but they do! If you kill yourself you will never get to find that out. you will hurt your family and you will hurt your friends because they will always carry around the guilt of your suicide. School only lasts for so long and then its over with and people move on into the real world. I have actually had high school bullies come up to me in college and apologize for treating me the way they did. You would be surprised how many people actually feel remorse for being bullies. Often times kids only bully other kids because their friends all gang up on one person and they do not want to feel like they are being left out and they want to keep their friends so badly that they will do anything to ensure that they themselves do not become the outcast in school.
Hopefully one day a genuine solution will be found for all of this. I know we can never stop kids from bullying each other but we can prevent suicides if we just pay attention to the warning signs and intervene before it is too late.
This is a picture of the 15 year old girl who took her life. Today on facebook I am making her picture my profile picture in memorial of her life and of this tragic event.
As you can all see I am a very nostalgic person. It is hard to believe that 2005 was 7 years ago O_O. Makes me feel really old! Anyways Let's see 2005... what was I doing? Oh yeah, I was in 10th grade and It was prolly the most rebellious time of my teenage life. I remember constantly getting in trouble at school for just about everything under the sun, weather it was breaking dress code or getting into fist fights with bullies, you could guarantee that I was going through some sort of drama at that time in my life. I also remember for the first time boys were starting to notice me around that age.. idk why either I looked so awkward!
The Following picture is of me and the one underneath was one of my boyfriends that I had that year.. I dated two but yeah.. I don't have a picture of the other one.
Yeah I know I was a total barney huh?
AND THIS WAS MY BOYFRIEND AT THE TIME. HIS NAME IS DAVID. HE WAS PUNK ROCK AND I LIKED HIM CUZ OF THAT.
Anyways moving along... There were a lot of things I was into back then that were a little weird. For one I remember being obsessed with Marilyn Manson and Nine Inch Nails. I don't like NIN anymore (and you guys all know why) but yeah.. I still do listen to Manson and enjoy his music. I remember going into Hot Topic and buying all the cool manson and nin shirts that they used to sell. I used to own this one...
I thought it was the coolest thing on the planet at the time and then lord and behold my mom threw it to the goodwill I think after she had enough of my spooky kid phase. I used to wear the stripped leggings and all. I mean When I look back at how I dress I start to see why I was bullied so much. Going to school in small town usa did not help out at all. Prolly should have dressed more like this..
YELL YEAH YALL!
Another garment I had grown very fond of was the tartan mini skirt
NOW THESE WERE THE REASON WHY I GOT SENT TO IN SCHOOL SUSPENSION EVERY OTHER WEEK. Second fucking day at Powhatan High I got thrown into ISS by MRS. GWALTNEY because I was wearing one of these. The one I had on was not even that short and it totally met the fingertip length requirements. After that day that woman was constantly on my ass about what I would wear to school. I remember the first time I got in trouble I had a note sent home with me and OH BOY was my mom mad. I never really got that either because she used to buy my clothes so.. yeah anways Ima shut up now.
I could not be a proper spooky kid without a metal lunchbox. Manson had one during his early days and I had to be a copy cat. I even taped up pictures of him on the inside of it. I used to bring lunch to school just for the sake of using my lunchbox.
ok enough of that.. So yeah Let's see what kind of music I was really into back then..
A.F.I was in heavy rotation on my ipod. I specifically remember jamming out to them in Bio class during the middle of a lecture. The teacher had no clue either. I guess cuz I sat in the the back and used to hide my headphones really well underneath my hoodie that i was not supposed to wear in class but did anyways. I think she eventually gave up on making me take the damn thing off after a while. In my school not many people listen to Nirvana or Alice In Chains and I wanted to blend in with the emo kids because they were the only ones who accepted me. So i had to adapt to some of their ways. A.F.I was the only "emo" band that I found tolerable so I just stuck with them. I actually do like them though..
JACK OFF JILL
I discovered them on someone's Xanga page (omg remember Zanga? it was one of the first blogging sites haha). Anyway I fell in love with them! I was into the whole riot grrl thing in 9th grade and when I found out that there were all girl goth bands out there as well I flipped my gord because I was always searching for female role models.
EVERY MORNING before i got on the school bus I would wait inside my house for a little while and watch music videos in the morning, back when mtv still somewhat aired them. I loved this video so much even though I hated Gwen at the time because I thought she was too mainstream. When I was in 10th grade I used to dress in Harjuku style clothes so I thought this was so cool because other people were finding out about Japanese Fashion and making it more mainstream and more acceptable to wear.
THIS is embarrassing.. but I loved this song -__-
Finally something I am not ashamed of! A Perfect Circle had just let out a new album the year before and this video came out the next year. When I saw it on Fuse Tv I was so confused, I was like um.. this video does not match this song at all? "WHAT AM I WATCHING?!?! IS THIS A PORNO?!?!" Yeah back then I thought this was enough to be considered porn haha. Anyways After I saw this video I used to have stupid daydreams in class that me and my friends were gonna rip our clothes off and beat people up in our bikinis. I don't know.. I was WEIRD!
Now let's more on to the TV shows I was into at the time.
I don't even know why I was so into this show but I was. To the point of embarrassment actually. I even used to draw the Charmed symbol thingy on my hand in class with an ink pen. I also tried to be a witch and started to go to barnes and noble's new age section and often found myself jotting down spells on a piece of papers since my mother would have ripped me a new one if I brought home a spell book. It was actually thanks to this show that I soon after discovered who The Smiths were.
GHOST IN THE SHELL: STAND ALONE COMPLEX
When I grew up I thought I was gonna have a prosthetic body and be a bad ass cop just like the major. She was the coolest anime character ever and still is! I even cut my hair to look like hers! THAT my friends is dedication. I actually cut it myself too haha.
Well there ya have it. All of the things that I miss about 2005! Oh I almost forgot something...
A PLACE FOR FRIENDS!
I would kill to have left my profile the way it was back then. I got a new one after high school ended but I took everything of of my original one. even deleted all my friends. Anyways this website got me into so much trouble at home. My mom did not want me using it, as a matter of fact, i do not think anyones parents wanted them using it. I think everyone was afraid that kids were talking to perverts and what not on there. I used to sneak on at school until they started to block the site. Then I thought I would get smart! I stared to use a proxy, but then sadly those were blocked as well. I used to spend so much time making my profile pretty and talking to people on there. I think 2005 could actually mark the year that I stopped socializing in real life (besides going to school that is) Since Powhatan County sucks I had to meet people from other schools and have a way to keep in contact with my friends from my old schools that I had gone to in the past. None of us had cell phones back then because they were still relatively a new thing. Kids these days are so lucky that they have cell phones btw. I remember when we used to have to pass notes in class -_- and that was super risky cuz if the teacher or someone else read them you were usually done for. It often ended up in a trip to the guidance counselors office or a detention of some kind.
So what things do you miss about 2005? Do you wish you could go back and change who you were back then? Did you listen to shitty music? Did you watch lame tv shows? Who were your favorite bands at the time? FEEDBACK PEOPLE!
