Week Long Food Diary.

So I decided to make a food diary just for laughs and giggles so that people can see what my eating habits are like. I always have people asking me about my diet so here it goes.. Starting with last Friday.


Friday: Lunch: Salmon roll (5 pieces),  Gyoza (4 pieces), Chicken Teriyaki Pieces not many of them   with a little bit of white rice, Salad with The orange dressing that they give you at kabutos.

dinner: 3 slices of pizza from sergios. it had chicken on it as well as onions, Jalepeños, and sundried tomatoes.

Saturday: Breakfast: nothing.
                Lunch: Left over Jap. Chicken Teryaki with white Rice and a pepsi.
                Dinner: Mcdonald's 6 piece nuggets with a medium size fries and sweet tea.

Physical activity: walked one mile round trip from my store to commonwealth parkway shopping center. Because I am a loser who can not legally drive my own car yet. :p

Sunday: Lunch: One Hot Dog (nathans) from the movie theatre ( i typically do not eat pork fyi)
              Dinner: Rollo Mcflurry From Mc'Ds.
              Midnight Snack: Ham and Cheese Sandwich on wheat bread ( I never eat white bread HATE
              it)

Physical activity: walked one mile round trip from my store to commonwealth parkway shopping center. Because I am a loser who can not legally drive my own car yet. :p

Monday: Breakfast: PB&J sandwich with banana slices on wheat bread.
                Lunch: ham and cheese sandwich.
                Dinner: Pb&J Sandwich

Tuesday: Lunch: two pb&j sandwiches with bananas.
               Dinner: Three chicken strips with two handfuls of fries from Sergios (the kids meal)


Wednesday: Lunch: pb&j had it for dinner too.

Physical activity: walked one mile round trip from my store to commonwealth parkway shopping center. Because I am a loser who can not legally drive my own car yet. :p


Thursday: Breakfast: PB&J Sandwich with banana slices.
                 Lunch: Chicken panini with pasta salad from Sergios.

Physical Activity: I rode my bike for 30 minutes.
         
Friday: Breakfast: pb&j sandwich with bananas slices
            Lunch: Chicken Strip Kids Meal from sergios.
       
Saturday: breakfast: OMG GUESS WHAT! PB AND J WITH BANANAS! AGAIN!
                lunch: same as yesterday but this time I got a cheesecake. Have not sunk my teeth into the    
                cake yet. It is a plain one.


There you have it. That is what I ate this week. oh and I ALWAYS drink water unless otherwise stated.

The Dark Knight Massacre

This morning when I heard the news of the tragedy that took place today I was horrified. The first thing that ran through my head was "my god, me and my younger siblings frequent the movie theatre together often, something like this could happen anywhere at anytime and if it did would I be prepared to take a bullet to the head for my little sister or brother? If it did, would I have been able to hide my siblings underneath the seats somehow? Would I have been able to keep us safe in the line of fire? All kinds of questions started to go through my head. Then reality struck. I went to ustream and watched a live news covering from a station in Colorado. The first interview I saw was from a woman who had was talking about her grizzly experience inside of Theatre 9. She told the news reporter how she had come across a man who had been shot and how she wanted to try to save him but if she did there was a chance that she would have been shot herself so she chose to leave him there. The next interview came from a man who said he saw a 14 year old girl dead on the stairs on the theatre. I started to get all of these horrible visions in my head and I decided to exit out of ustream. I did not want to hear anymore about it.

I called my mother to ask her if she had heard the news. She told me that there was coverage all morning long. "he shot a two year old girl point blank". As soon as these words left my mothers mouth I just wanted to cry. I can not even IMAGINE what kind of sick fuck would kill an innocent little child.   She then brought forth to my knowledge that a blame game had already begun! Of corse! As usual, every time there is a mass murdering the media has to step outside of it's job. Instead of reporting the basic facts and covering the news the way THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO they instead start to try to find someone to point their grubby finger at in order to stir up more of a story. My mom told me that Rush Limbaugh and the tea party were blamed because there happened to be a James Holmes that was registered under the tea party in Denver. The media later apologized for this speculation.  Rightly so, they also at first failed to mention that there were several James Holmes on that list and none of them was the actual James Holmes. So who is going to get the blame next?  The director of the film? Christian Bale? Batman? The Joker? The late Heat Ledger? DC Comics?

The media always wants to find out EVERY single detail about the killer as soon as possible. Everyone watching the story being covered anxiously awaits for a photo to be shown of the criminal, People want to know what he did for a living, what his hobbies were, what movies or music he enjoyed, They want to know all of these useless details and to be honest I have no clue why. To me the news was painting this guy out to be some sort of anti-hero from a movie. A celebrity if you will. This is nothing new of course. Thirteen years ago in the same exact town we saw the same exact thing with Dylan Klebold and Eric Harris. Everyone blamed the Matrix and violent video games for what they did. The finger somehow got pointed to Marylin Manson even thought both boys hated his music and were fans of KMDM and other industrial bands of the like. A few years later Micheal Moore made a little movie that attacked the NRA and the right to bare arms. Everyone wants to blame a tragedy on everyone and EVERYTHING except for the person who is solely responsible, the killer himself. Why is this? Why do we feel the need to find the reason behind what some maniac like Holmes did? Does this 24 year old man not have a mind of his own? surely he does if he was smart enough to boobie trap his apartment and plan out a massacre on such a grand scale. Why are we looking to the tea party to blame for his actions when it was not even a solid fact that he was a member? Why do we have to try to find some sort of influence for his actions? This man is obviously a lunatic and deranged. Any one can see that from his actions.

I am just taken aback by how sloppily the media has covered this story and also I am overwhelmed to see how many rumors and hoaxes came out of this story through social media. I have heard all sorts of things online and I do not believe any of them because I know how that goes. Any dumbass living in his mothers basement with  internet access can say whatever they want online and BAM the next thing you know their tweet or blog post as been read by half a million people and everyone takes their words as facts.  The internet can be a very dangerous thing when covering news when you think about it.

People are still bringing up the age old argument of "if guns were illegal these things would cease to continue". What people do not understand is that these sorts of things will happen and continue to happen in the future no matter what kind of laws you make. People have been killing people through out human history, even before gun powder was concocted thousands of years ago in China. If someone wants to commit a crime badly enough they will find a way to do it gun laws or none. Dylan and eric got guns because they had an older friend of theirs buy them guns. They themselves did not purchase the guns. They also made their own bombs. Taking away guns is not going to solve anything. Human beings are violent in nature and this is never going to change no many how many times you sign a bill into law.

I think what America needs to do right now is to remember the people who lost their lives today and to support the families who lost their loved ones and to pray for those who were injured. The news should no longer tell anymore details about Holmes because in doing so they are only glorifying him. We need to take the time to remind ourselves not to take life for granted and also not to be afraid of anything after events like this happen. I was going to go see the Batman movie tonight but my mother told me she did not want me to go. I told her "look nothing is going to happen, I am not going to live my life in fear because of what some lunatic did last night, he wants people to be afraid, that is why he did it." I decided not to go after all tonight (not out of fear by the way) but I do plan on seeing it maybe sometime next week. I do not know if I am going to be able to watch it without getting emotional during the shootout scene however.

The movie theatre is a place where people go to escape from their every day stresses and worries for a couple of hours, a place where people like to forget about whatever they are going through, to escape the horrors of life. It saddens me so much that someone did something like this to a bunch of people who were waiting for months for this movie to come out. There were kids there. KIDS.  That to me is what makes this story so heartbreaking. People went to go see this movie in order to watch the story of a hero, yet none of them had any clue that they themselves would end up walking away heroes that night by aiding the wounded out of the theatre.

My Face My Choice.

If it is one thing that I can NOT STAND it is when a guy tells me that I should not wear make up because he hates the way girls look with make up. If you hate the way girls look with make up well then that is your problem not mine! I like to wear makeup because it makes me feel pretty and girl like and I also love applying it and finding new ways to apply it and new looks as well. I sometimes spend hours online looking up new products or window shopping on MAC'S website for different eyeshadows. I think guys have this idea that girls who wear make up are not confident or that they are trying to hide something. While yes sometimes that is true it is not always the case with everyone. I am not going to sit here and type away a bunch of lies. I do also wear make up because I like to cover up my flaws. However that is not the MAIN reason i wear it.

I am just really tried of seeing guys (and some girls) posting  up this STUPID picture online.

Ok first off let's get real. I am pretty sure anonymous homeboy in a galaxy far far away made this little meme as a way to get some booty. Let's not kid ourselves here. I mean it's pretty obvious that he wants to be known as that "sensitive caring guy" who is so in tune with his feminine side and genuinely cares about a girls feelings and all of that b.s. Not saying that there is a chance that he can not REALLY feel this way. I mean maybe he does. But  regardless I HATE this picture because it is painting a bad picture of girls who like make up and nice clothes. I am pretty sure that there are TONS of girls who do not wear make up and nice clothes because they are insecure. I am so sick of this bullshit that is being spread online all of the time. It is the same as saying to a guy "Hey guys you don't be insecure! There is no need to buy a nice car or wear nice clothes or taking showers and brushing your teeth! YOU ARE ALL HOT!" I mean really...

So guys let's get this straight. NOT ALL GIRLS WHO WEAR MAKE UP AND DRESS NICE ARE INSECURE! PLEASE STOP THINKING THAT. It's my face, so it's my choice! If I want to wear tons of make up so be it! If i want to buy a 2,000 pair of Alexander Mcqueen so be it! (chya right I wish I had that kind of money). I should not have to look to you for approval on ANYTHING that I do.

There was actually this guy that I was talking to two years ago online. We never met in person (thank god for that) actually but he sure did make a lot of assumptions about me that were things he could totally not tell for sure unless he new me in real life. Basically me and him got along until he starts to call me shallow. I asked him why he thought this of me and the first thing that came out of his mouth was "you wear too much make up, my ex heather used to wear eyeliner when she would go to places like the grocery store and I could not stand it!" He went on to tell me how I am too concerned with makeup and fancy clothes and how he did not like that part of me. The part that liked to be girly. We finally stopped speaking to one another because I could not take his constant criticism. That and uh.. he got back with this ex. Truth is it would not have worked out anyway because I would NEVER be with someone who wants to dictate the way I dress and make myself up. He would always complain about my facebook pictures and how I looked way better when was not wearing any make up (joke was on him because I am ALWAYS wearing make up in my pictures even when it looks like I am not wearing any).

Look the point that I am trying to make here guys is that you should be respectful of a girls choice to wear as little or as much make up as she wants to. You telling us that we are insecure because of the way we dress is NOT being respectful and it certainly does not make us feel good. So please choose your words more wisely and stop making stupid memes!

Daniel Tosh is a Dickhead!

Before I start to comment on this incident I would like to make it known that I have no clue who this guy is. I do not watch television and as a matter of fact I do not even own a television. I prefer to waste my time on the internet. Mainly because most of what I have seen on television in the past has managed to do everything BUT entertain me. Rather it usually pisses me off because I can not fathom how stupid society has actually become. I mean really, is this what our society had come down to? Adoring comedians who make vulgar "jokes" and idolizing women such as Jwow and Snookie? It's really pathetic when you think about it. Down right sad state of affairs actually.

That being said....

When I saw the name Daniel Tosh trending on twitter this week I decided to click on his name to find out who he was and what he did wrong or what he did right. As we all know you only become a trending topic if you either a. offended someone, b. died, or c, had a sex tape released to the public or d) saved a child from a burning building.  I pretty much had a good idea that choice c was not the case here.

Needless to say when I found out what this man said to a "heckler" ( I prefer to call her a brave woman) I was disgusted and very disturbed. I honestly wanted to write a letter to this guy and explain to him what a joke is. A joke is something that is funny. There is NOTHING funny about a women who is being forced against her will to engage in an intimate act such as sex. If I had it my way all rapists would not even be sent to jail, they would be tortured and then killed. Especially those that rape children and virgins or child virgins (teens) . No one deserves to have their virginity taken away from them by some sick fuck! It is often hard for people to empathize of course because in order to empathize one must have had gone through the same exact situation. But honestly someone in the crowd besides this woman should have stood up to this stupid fuck for making rape jokes! People should be more sympathetic towards each other. I mean I am sure there was probably someone in the crowd that had been sexually assaulted and possibly raped. You can't just go around saying things like this when you are a public figure! . Especially one who's fan base consists of mostly males. I have a few "famous" friends and acquaintances and I can tell you first hand that their are some crazy fucking fans out there in this world that will act on things that they hear their "heroes" say and even mimic some of the things they do. I do not think people really understand that. Daniel Tosh is a immature and irresponsible person if you ask me. The following statement came directly from Tosh's victim.

“Tosh then starts making some very generalizing, declarative statements about rape jokes always being funny… I yelled out, “Actually, rape jokes are never funny!”

… After I called out to him, Tosh paused for a moment. Then, he says, “Wouldn’t it be funny if that girl got raped by like, 5 guys right now? Like right now? What if a bunch of guys just raped her…” and I, completely stunned and finding it hard to process what was happening but knowing i needed to get out of there, immediately nudged my friend, who was also completely stunned, and we high-tailed it out of there.”




I am sorry but you have to be a completely ignorant person to think that this is ok to say. What he said was NOT a joke it was a provoking statement if you ask me. Of course there are tons of people supporting Tosh (not really shocking to me since this world is filled with people who are desperate for attention online so they decide to support the bad guys in order to get a rise out of people). I have seen several people online pull out the freedom of speech card. These people honestly have no clue about what sorts of speech the first amendment covers. So here is a little fiy for all of you who feel asleep in government class or were too busy doodling pictures of perverted cartoons in your notebook.  THE FIRST AMENDMENT STATES THAT FREEDOM OF SPEECH DOES NOT INCLUDE ADVOCACY OF ILLEGAL ACTIONS, FIGHTING WORDS, OBSCENITY OR COMMERCIAL SPEECH!  Tosh is guilty of three of these things. In my opinion he was provoking violence against this young woman. What if one of the members of the crowd would have taken his "joke" (if you can even call it that) literally that night and raped her? Like I said Daniel Tosh is not a man. He is a irresponsible little boy trapped inside a 37 year old mans body. 


Another stupid statement I have seen on Tumblr blogs and twitter alike is "It's ok he makes fun of everyone." Saying that it would be funny if a girl got raped is not "making fun" of her. Making fun of her would have included a personal insult such as "oh my god that girl looks like a beaver her teeth are FUCKING HUGE". Remember when Michael Richards called one of his hecklers a nigger? Remember how EVERYONE was boycotting him and making a big fucking scandal over that? Why are people not making a big deal over this whole Daniel Tosh thing?  The only people who are making a big deal of it are women from what I have seen so far. Actually, I know a few women who are supporting him! I don't understand that at all!  Kramer actually had to apologize to people like Jessie Jackson and Al Sharpton on television! Has Tosh make a highly publicized apology over the airwaves yet to women? I know he has apologized for the incident via twitter and has ordered that all of the rape jokes are to be taken out of the pilot of some shitty show of his that is going to air sometime soon, but to me that is not enough. If he had any sense of self decency he would resign from being a comedian and go live in a hole for a few years until he realizes how fucked up he is.  If you ask me his apology does not even seem sincere. Which leads me to another question entirely, is hateful and violent speech against women more excepted in society today than racial slurs? How long does it take for certain things to all of a sudden become unacceptable in society? 

Killer Chick Flicks

Oh wow lots of cobwebs all over this blog! Sorry I have been super busy this semester and I have not had much free time to blog away on both tumblr and here so yeah... Sorry to all 7 of my followers, anyways I am gonna post some synopsis of some of my favorite movies with CHICKS THAT KILL PEOPLE! I am only going to be posting one movie a day because I don't want this to be a super massive long blog post.. so yeah uh.. this is kind of like a countdown thingy but no really? Anyways here we go....

MAY (2002)

I rented this film a few years back on itunes and I LOVED it. The main character reminded me a lot of myself so I guess that is why. The story is about a early 20 something named May. She is awkward as fuck and that would be do to the fact that she was born with a lazy eye and she never made any friends in grade school because I mean let's be honest, who wants to be seen walking around with a chick that has a lazy eye right? Well anyways since she did not have any friends when she was a kid her mom gave her a doll for  her birthday and told her that she could be her friend.  May kept the doll until she was a grown ass woman and kept it on a shelf in her sewing room. At the start of the film she is talking to it.. really creepy shit. When her mom gave her the doll she had told may that if she could not have a friend that she should make one (hints the doll, her mother made it). 

Anyways May works as a vet assistant and lives in l.a. She works for a vet who is like idk.. from some place like the Ukraine or something and she happens to have a lesbian coworker that eventually ends up having relations with her later on down the road. One day May goes to a restaurant and sees this guy who sort of kind of looks like Jim Morrison. She develops a crush on him but is way too shy to go up to him so she kind of just sort of stalks him around a bit until she FINALLY meets him while making a visit to the laundry mat. The two end up going on a few dates.  Even though she is awkward as fuck this guy digs her because he is like totally one of those weird film student dudes who likes making horror films and all that stuff. Things turn ugly one night however. While May went over to this guys house they ended up watching one of his home made short films. In the film a girl starts to bite this guy and then she starts to eat him. Anyways After the movie is over the two decide to get a little sexual and move things to the bedroom, May bites the Jim Morrrison look alike REAL fucking hard on the lip while they are making out and draws a LOT of blood. As you can imagine he flips the fuck out and tells her to leave. May ends up going home all upset because she knows she fucked things up with him. The next day she goes to work and her lesbian coworker notices that she is upset so she starts to come on to her because she knows at this point that May is an easy target.. I mean homegirl just got rejected so yeah ... anyways May decided to go over to her coworkers place after work one day and finds that she is with another women who apparently is a prostitute, May gets upset and runs off but uh they do initially end up doing sex things together later down the road. 

May still tries to talk to the Jim Morrison looking dude but he stops calling her all together and answering her calls so she ends up going to his house. She creeps around outside and eves drops on him and his friends and she over hears them calling her a freak and making fun of her. Of course you can imagine that this started to add fuel to the fire for her motivation to start killing people....

Ok so I am gonna end the story there because I do not want to contain spoilers. If you wanna see what else happens GO OUT AND WATCH THIS! It is a very creepy film and it's hard to stomach a few scenes but yeah.. I liked it. 

Don't be a Desperate Debbie!

I decided to start giving some advice on here just cuz like oh.. idk I am kind of running out of things to blog about and I kind of just thought about this topic about two days ago because I totally realize how many times I have fucked up my chances with a few guys that I REALLY liked in the past. It is NEVER a good thing to throw yourself on a guy EVER and there is no quicker way to get blocked from facebook, twitter, and even get a restraining order put on you then by being needy. I will admit I have a problem with being clingy and it's not something I am proud of. There are many reasons behind that. Main reason is because I had my heart broken really badly in the past by someone I really cared about and thought that I was eventually going to marry one day. When he dumped me my whole world came crashing down and I never fully recovered from that. Everytime I like a guy I go out of my way to try to make him like me back but I tend to forget that you simply can not MAKE someone like you. They are either going to like you or not. You can do things to make yourself more pleasant and attractive to guys but when it comes down to it it's gonna be totally up to them to decide weather or not they like your personality. For the most part I try to be as sweet and pleasant as possible when I am around a guy that I really like. I try not to be too touchy feely but that is something I have a major problem with. I like to hug on guys alot and be affectionate with them. The reason for that is because when I was a child I never really was shown much affection from my mother or my first step father and now I guess I am just trying to make up for that by seeking affection from guys. Anyways truth be told every girl that tends to be clingy or needy has their reasons behind why they are like that. The key is to control it. Until here recently I never really tried to control that aspect of myself but one day I woke up and took a look at myself in the mirror and thought "my god I am pathetic!" I am now starting to try to control my greatest downfall about my personality and I decided to take the liberty to write down all the ways that girls (including myself) fuck things up and ruin their chances with the guy that they like. Here we go.....

• THE OVER TEXTER: THIS IS THE BIGGEST FUCK UP YOU CAN MAKE! This fuck up is not only limited to phone texts either, it also applies to girls who constantly call, email. twitter @, fb message and skype message their crush. There is nothing more annoying or irritating then to constantly have your phone pinging because someone won't stop messaging you. Usually girls go ape shit when a guy does not text them back right away so they start to send messages over and over and over again and those messages tend to say things like "whats up?" or "are you mad at me?" or "you don't think I am crazy do you?" YES HE THINKS YOU ARE CRAZY! YOU ARE TEXTING HIM EVERY 20 MINUTES AND TRYING TO CONTACT HIM ON EVERY SINGLE SOCIAL NETWORKING SITE THAT HE HAS AN ACCOUNT ON AND YOU THINK THAT HE POSSIBLY DOES NOT THINK YOU ARE CRAZY?!" This is the best way to not only get blocked but also possibly get a restraining order placed on you. If you text a guy one time and he does not answer back there are prolly a few good reasons for that, maybe he is at work, maybe he is at dinner with his parents, maybe he is at a party with his friends , maybe his phone is dead there are a multitude of reasons as to why. If you text a guy and he does not text back right away don't freak out! If he never responds then just assume that he is not interested and move on. You don't want to prove to him that you are crazy by constantly texting him. Not only does it ruin your chances with him it could possibly ruin your chances with other guys too because you are gonna end up building this reputation as "that needy chick".

• DO NOT TELL HIM YOU LOVE HIM: Ok like I will admit I like to tell guys that I love them but when I say it I don't mean it. whoops that sounded bad! Let me rephrase that, when I flirt around with guys online or (very rarely) in REAL life, I usually tell them that I love them but I do not actually mean love love as in "omg I have known you for 5 years now and I want to marry you and have kids"I mean it in a cute way as in like I like them a lot. But SOME girls tell guys they love them and they actually mean it, even after only knowing them for a few days! Nothing creeps a guy out more I think then hearing those words because they prolly think that you are trying to rush them into being committed to you. I mean not just that but let's be honest guys and girls a like both prolly get really creeped out when someone tells them that they love them and they hardly even know them.

CREEPER!

• DO NOT ADD HIM ON ANY SOCIAL NETWORKING SITES UNTIL AFTER YOU GUYS ARE ALREADY IN A RELATIONSHIP!!!!: This is another no no and should be avoided at all costs. Reasons are numerous as to why but the main reason is because of jealousy.  If you add a guy that you have a crush on on Fb or Twitter chances are you are going to see a few things that are going to upset you, maybe he has a lot of girls that flirt with him online, maybe he is very social and goes to a lot of parties and has pictures taken with a lot of pretty girls, maybe he is in an open relationship with someone, any of these things can trigger mass amounts of jealousy and can totally destroy your ego and your confidence! Also this goes hand in hand with the over texting rule. If he is on your facebook list or twitter you are going to be even more tempted to over contact him. Everytime you see him on facebook chat you are gonna want to have a convo with him and OF COURSE if it appears that he is online and he is not responding to you right away you are going to think that he is avoiding you so you are gonna end up sending him tons of messages till you get a response, and god forbid if you do not get a response because it's gonna make you cry and all of that. There are many reasons as to why he is not talking back, hell maybe he was not even online to begin with and he just forgot to log out! If he is on twitter you are prolly gonna end up @ing him about 20 times a day and every time you see him talking to another girl you are gonna get angry. Having your crush on you social networking site is just not worth it. Sure you can still lurk his page if it is public but you are less likely to do that I think, too much work.

• FIND SOMETHING ELSE TO OCCUPY YOUR TIME WITH OR YOU ARE GONNA LOOK LIKE A DESPERATE LOSER WITH TOO MUCH TIME ON YOUR HANDS! Do not obsess over your crush. This may be very hard to do for some girls but it is a very very critical mistake. If all you do all day long is look at his pictures on facebook, text him, think about him, talk about him to your friends constantly it's gonna make you seem like a big ol case of cray cray. I mean we all have seen this ongoing joke in hey arnold right? (see below picture) The segment that is shown every once in a while when Helga goes to her closet to worship Arnold in front of that creepy ass shrine she made for him. It's cute to be a little infatuated with the guy you like but like I said when he is all you think about and all you talk about people are going to think you are nuts, he is going to think you are nuts, and you are prolly gonna end up in a psych ward if your obsession keeps up. Try to focus on other things and not think about him to much. Pick up a hobby or study or get a second job or something. OCCUPY YOUR THOUGHTS WITH OTHER THINGS! Just keep in mind that no guy has ever liked a girl back because she kept thinking about him all day long. It's creepy, it's weird and not to mention... PATHETIC! 

Well ok that is all the advice I have on this topic.. talking from both experience and observations that I have made over the years of others behaviors this is just about the best advice I can give to anyone who is gaga over someone and does not want to come off as a creep. Feel Free to add on to the list if you want. What kinds of things creep you out? Have you ever been called a creep? Do you have a few creeps after you? Do you like that song by Radiohead called Creep? -XOXO

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PACKAGE TWO: HANG OUT WITH ME ON A ONE ON ONE DATE AT THE BOWLING ALLEY NEAR MY HOUSE THAT I STILL DO NOT KNOW THE NAME OF! THIS PACKAGE IS GOOD FOR ONE BOWLING DATE WITH ME! WE WILL WEAR ROCKABILLY CLOTHES SO THAT WE LOOK LIKE WE BELONG IN THE JOINT AND PLAY ONE GAME OF BOWLING! THEN WE WILL CHALLENGE EACH OTHER IN A GAME OF MS. PACMAN! THE LOSER HAS TO BUY THE WINNER A LARGE SODA! THEN WE WILL GO OUT IN THE PARKING LOT AND HUG EACH OTHER ONE TIME AND THEN YOU GET TO DRIVE ME HOME WHILE WE LISTEN TO MASTER OF PUPPETS! 

Package Cost: $50.00 (#of packages for sale:2)

PACKAGE THREE :  MINI GOLD DATE! YOU GET TO TAKE ME TO THE MINI GOLF PLACE BY MY HOUSE AND PLAY TWO ROUNDS OF MINI GOLF WITH ME! THAT IS RIGHT... TWO ROUNDS! THEN I WILL CHALLENGE YOU TO A GAME OF MARVEL VS. CAPCOM AND THE WINNER HAS TO BUY THE LOSER AN ICE CREAM OF THEIR CHOICE! THEN WE WILL RACE EACH OTHER WHILE DRESSED AS MARIO KART CHARACTERS! AT THE END OF THE NIGHT I WILL GIVE YOU A HUG AND WE WILL DRIVE HOME WHILE LISTENING TO A SMASHING PUMPKINS ALBUM OF YOUR CHOCE!

Package Cost: $100.00 (buyer must pay for all games, food, and everything else!) (#number of packages for sale:1)

PACKAGE 4: SPEND THE WHOLE ENTIRE DAY WITH ME! (NOTE THIS CAN ONLY HAPPEN ON A SUNDAY) NOT MUCH TO SAY HERE.. JUST TAKE ME SOMEPLACE OF YOUR CHOICE AND SPEND THE WHOLE DAY THERE WITH ME! ANYWHERE IS FINE AS LONG AS IT IS SAFE AND CLEAN! ON THE WAY HOME I WILL GIVE YOU A HUG IN YOUR CAR AND WE WILL LISTEN TO THE DOPE SHOW ON LOOP UNTIL YOU TAKE ME HOME!

PACKAGE COST: $150.00! (you cover all activities that are to be done that day!)

Me and Dave

For one night he was my boyfriend and he was the best BF I ever had :3 haha. sorry took me so long to post this.. I would do a whole blog entry but meh.. my arm hurts and I already told most people how I got beat at the show by that large lesbo woman who was in front of me.. 

What's Inside my Box of Tricks?

As many of you may or may not know I am a makeup enthusiast! When I first started to wear makeup I was in the 10th grade and I can safely say that I looked like a disaster. I had no clue what I was doing back then at all. I mean I basically drew circles around my eyes with eyeliner. Yeah it was bad.... anyways in 11th grade I started to work more on my makeup and over the years (thanks to many awesome youtube tutorials) my skills improved and I no longer look like a member of Insane Clown Posse as a result.

Last night I decided to make an inventory of everything I use so that I can share it with those of you who might be interested in what products I wear and swear by. I took the liberty to take a picture of the inside of my makeup case and labeled each item and wrote up a description of the item including the name of item, price, and the reason why I love it OR don't particularly care for it but use it anyways because I spent money on it ( I tend to be a very spontaneous shopper, it the Sagittarius in me.)

                                                                  MY LIDDO BOX OF TRICKS

Concealers

#1 DermaBlend smooth indulgence foundation in caramel beige

I have really bad dark circles under my eyes, a few scars from pimples on my cheeks (they are not that bad but they do bother me a little), and chicken pox scars along my left eyebrow which makes my forehead look like a game of connect the dots. I cover all of that nasty stuff up by first applying my MAC concealer over them and then applying Dermablend on top of that. I have to use two different colors because of my skin complexion. Using the Mac concealer alone makes my skin look yellow. Using these two products together conceals my flaws while not making me look like I have jaundice because the two mixed together matches my olive skin tone perfectly.

PRICE: $20.00 online but I bought mine from Ulta and it set me back $26.00. If you buy the product online it is cheaper but it still ends up being $26.00 or so because of shipping cost. I would not buy this product again to be honest because it was just too damn pricey and I could probably get the same effect if I would have just bought a cheap concealer from cover girl in a shade that was one shade darker than my skin tone and mixing it with the MAC concealer that I have. I was excited when I first bought this but now I kind of regret it.
#2 MAC select moisture concealer in NC30

I pretty much already described what i use this for in the paragraph above. 

Price:$16.00

Eyes

#9 L'oreal smokey eyes paletteI don't actually use this anymore but it's a perfect pallet for beginners who are not familiar with the smokey eye look. Comes with all the colors you need for this look and instructions are on the back of the pallet on how to apply correctly. Only time I use this is when I'm going somewhere that's not that important because I don't like wasting my MAC makeup on everyday outings. I usually only use the black shadow from here when I am just going out to the mall or school. Funny thing is that now a days I actually do not wear makeup at all unless I am going to be seen by people I know or if I am going to a show or out on a date with friends.
Price $6.99 I think I bought this a long time ago so I have no clue. 

# 3 #4 #5 MAC shadows

Orb for brow bone, Vex for base, smut for crease. These colors are all used for smokey eye look. I only use these shadows when I am doing my oh so famous amature photoshoots at home or when I go out to a show. I bought these shadows in 2009 and I'm just now running out of vex. Each shadow costs 16 bucks but since I use them sparingly I have managed to make them last a very long time.  Mac shadows prolly have an expiration date but I'm not sure. The pigments are still as strong as the day I bought them so I'd day the money spent is well worth it.

#6 L'oreal Paris HP studio secrets metallic dual eye shadow in GILDED
Since I have olive skin I don't get to wear all the pretty color shadows that I would like to. Anything other than browns or greys and blacks tends to make my skin look ashy. I can totally forget about wearing blue eyshadow. :( As you can guess things get pretty boring when your limited to such a small color pallet.  L'oreal's metallic shadow in gilded is a perfect way to make things more exciting! The shiny golden color that comes in this pallet looks very nice on olive colored skin.
Price: $6.99

#7 L'oreal  liquid eyeliner
I never wear anything other than cat eye when I put on eyeliner. I adore 1960's pin up girls such as Jane Mansfield and Bridgette Bardot so it's no wonder why I love the cat eye as much as I do. From years of wearing this look I have come to find that liquid eyeliner is the best option when it comes to cat eye.  Regular eye pencil is terrible for cat eye because it tends to smudge a lot and by the end of the day you end up looking like you either got off set of a really bad fetish porno or like you were crying all day. I never tried out gel liner but I have heard that it sucks as well from many YouTube tutorials.  This particular liquid eyeliner stays on all day long and the ironic thing about it is that it washes off very easily. All it takes is water and a napkin to wipe it off. I haven't figured out why sweat does not remove it yet but I'm glad it doesnt. If you hate washing off makeup as much as I do then You need to buy this product!
Price $8.00

#8 MAC mascara
I've tried loreals massacre and hated it because it always made my lashes clumpy and it made them look like spider legs. This mascara is perfect for volume. If you already have very longs lashes like me than you will want this product because it only adds volume and not much length.
Price $15.00


LIPS
#10 Revlon Lipstick in Baby Pink
This lipstick is perfect if your going to wear a lot of eye makeup. Remember this very basic tip, if you are going to wear dramatic eye makeup go with a nude lip otherwise your going to end up looking like a clown or as many ladies like to say "the models from Robert palmers "addicted to love" video (see below picture for reference). If you wear anything other than nude lipstick your going to look very extreme.$6.99

BRUSHES & ECT.

MAC fluffy brush

Use this for smokey eyes. I put on the base color with this brush on my lid.

Price: $15.00 word to the wise do not spend money on MAC brushes it's not worth it and you can get better ones at Target to be honest. I was suckered into buying this. Those people at MAC are such good sellers! 

Sonia kashuk brow brush and lid liner brush
I like to darken my brows because my brows are terrible and are very patchy and this tends to make me look like I'm loosing my brows. I use this brush with a little bit of black eyeshadow on it in order to fill my brows in. Sometimes I fill my brows in with pencil. Just depends on my mood.
Price I think both of these were 3.99 each.

No name eyeshadow brushI use this for putting on my golden eyeshadow. This brush actually belonged to my ex friend Ashley. Idk how it ended up in my makeup bag but I am guessing it was when I was putting on makeup in her car at one of the NIN/JA shows we went to.
Price: STOLEN but I like to think of it as borrowed and never returned it. 

#13 Eyelash Curler:  No need for  falsies here because my lashes are longer than fake ones. I only curl them and apply mascara for volume only not length.
Price Anywhere from $1-4 dollars at Target.

Cleaners
#11 MAC brush cleaner
I'll be honest I was suckered into buying this. It works better than water for sure but it's not a necessity at all.
Price $13.00

#12 Maybeline expert eyes moisturizing eye make up remover

Great product that easily removes all make up in a matter of seconds. Only bad thing is it makes your face really greasy afterwards so ya gotta make sure to wash your face with soap and water after removing makeup.
Price $3.99

I added up the total cost of all of my products and I came up with $169.00 total for everything I have! With that being said I think that guys should think twice before they criticize the way I look because I spend a lot of money and time and effort just to look halfway decent! Most people would think that I am a pretty shallow and vain person after reading this post but everyone in real life that knows me can tell you that I am actually a total slob for the most part and I only make myself up when I am going to a show or on an outing with friends which does not happen very often may I mind you. The truth is every one wants to look presentable and every woman and girl wants to look her best and there is no denying that fact! Hopefully this post will help someone out there who is a total newbie to the world of makeup. Good luck and remember, STAY PRETTY! 

The best wig in the world!

So I am a little late with posting this. I got my wig in the mail about 3 weeks ago. I have been kind of busy with other things so I have not posted here in a few days and i have been meaning to post a blog about this wig but just have not had the chance. anyways here it is in all it's glory! Resting beautifully atop my round little head!

 TA DA! 

I apologize for the shitty webcam pic but it's all good right? I was too lazy to take pictures with my real camera. Anyway when I purchased this on Ebay I was not too sure what to expect. I always hear how it's not a good idea to buy wigs or clip on hair online because ya never know how thick or thin the hair is gonna be.  Well this wig has the perfect thickness. The hairs are not too thin nor are they too thick. The wig is comfortable to wear and does not seem to fall off easily. Then again I am usually very stiff when I am wearing it so yeah that might be the reason why it has not fallen off yet. On the inside there is a little strappy thingy that you can use to make sure that it does not fall off but idk how to use the strappy thingy so I don't. I also bought a wig cap to go with it. The wig cost me 16 dollars and the cap cost me 2 bucks. The ebay seller I bought it from ships all of there wigs for free so my subtotal was around 18 bucks or so. Not bad huh? The wig looks like real hair but it is actually synthetic. It totally does not look like a wig either when you wear it. some people actually thought I got extensions online because that's just how perfect this wig is! Here is the link to the store that bought it from. This link will direct you to the wig I purchased. As you can see it comes in many colors. Also this seller has other styles as well. 

CLICK HERE TO PURCHASE THIS WIG!

here are some more pictures of me wearing it for reference. It takes a while to make it look right on your head but in the end it comes out great! 

If ya have any questions just ask me! :D

I miss being a child (the 90's were totally rad!)

I feel bad for kids these days, all of the cartoons on tv are really lame and stupid and the toys... it's like wtf? bratz dolls and zhu zhu pets? REALLY?! LAME! I prolly post too many nostalgic blog entires but ya know what? FUCK IT! I like to think back on the past a lot more than I prolly should because my present sucks and I am unsure about my future. I like to look back on my childhood because just like everyone else, I wish I could go back in time so that I could appreciate it more. When we are kids we all wanna grow up overnight and then once we become adults it's like.. "fuck! THIS IS NOT what I had in mind!" I had a lot of favorite tv shows and toys and so yeah.. here is a post dedicated to all of the things I loved so dearly.

Virtual Pets!

I think everyone had at least one of these. The first one I ever got was a Giga pet. I begged my mom for one and one day while her and my aunt and my cousins were at the mall, my mom finally ended up purchasing me one! I remember that both me and my cousin Val got one that day. I picked the dog and she picked the cat. The reason why I wanted one of these so badly is because when I was a kid I was OBSESSED with dogs. I wanted one so badly. I begged my mom to buy me one but because we lived in a du plex and because the majority of the time I stayed with my great grandma (who hated animals!) I was not able to have one. So naturally I wanted the next best thing! A pixelated doggy! I honestly do not know who came up with this idea but they were a fuckin genius! As time when one I also got a tamagotchi, a knock off virtual pet that I found, a digimon (those were so cool because you could link them up and fight them!). a pikachu virtual pet (that was the first gift my step dad ever bought for me!), oh and a talking nano! dude those were the best and like if you had a talking nano all the other kids at school were jelly of you because they were the most expensive virtual pets out there. I actually had mine up until a few years ago. I lost it when I moved to San Diego :[ 

Interactive sound books

OH MY GOD THESE WERE THE BEST THING EVER! I loved to read when I was a kid but like when they started to add sound to books I was like HELL YES! I used to get at least two of these every year for my birthday and christmas. I remember I had one of the lion king!

SKIP IT! 

Fisher Price little people and school bus

I had this and all the people that came with it! I used to build buildings with the wooden blocks that I had and I would pretend that the kids inside were going on a field trip to places like Greece and Paris haha. I had a weird imagination. 

POGS!

Ok i admit I have no clue how to play with these at all. I just thought they looked cool and I remember that a pack of pogs always usually came with this thick plastic pog that had a holographic sticker on top of it. Can someone out there explain to me how to actually play with these? I think they need a comeback! 

Littlest Pet Shop!

I had all of the pieces in this picture haha and then some! Yeah this toy is still around but it is not cool anymore because the pieces are not actually that little anymore. Just like what happened to polly pocket, the company started to make the pieces bigger because they were a chocking hazzard I assume. The little animals that you had to purchase speratley had really cool features. For example, the chameleon used to change colors if you held him in your hand for a few minutes, 

Really it was the warmth from your hands that would change him from a dark green to a light green so you could also hold him up to a lamp and get the same effect. 

another cute piece that you could purchase was these two love birds! You could take the lid of the cage off if you wanted to. and the bottom half was rotatable so you could make them kiss my rotating the bottom  back and forth. It is kind of hard to explain without a video. -_- sorry if I still had mine I would demonstrate. 

Polly Pocket

I thing bit sized toys were really popular back then. These are what the original Polly Pocket toys look like. You could buy a compact and each one was different inside. I actually had the one in the center of this picture. It was a fairy themed compact. Usually each compact came with one polly pocket doll and a pet! I remember I had several compacts. I surprisingly never lost any of the dolls. I remember that over time the faces of the dolls would rub off because of over play, i guess they used cheap paint on these things.

Moving on to cartoon! It would take me all day long to list all of them and a description so I am just going to post screen caps of my top 5!

SAILOR MOON!

Courage the cowardly dog

JUMANJI! Yeah they made an animated series haha

The Rugrats 

and last but not least

MOST EPIC THEME SONG EVER! ( I think the guy that did Gary's voice actually sang this song.. but I could be wrong, he sounds like him though haha)

My Heart Goes Out To the Family.

Yesterday as I was checking my email on yahoo I came across an article about a 15 year old girl in New York City named Amanda Diane Cummings. Amanda took her life about three weeks ago. She died in the hospital after throwing herself in front of a school bus while she was carrying a suicide note in her hand. Now I was going to do a video blog about this but for some reason my macbooks cam will not let me make a video that is longer than two minutes for some reason. Anyway I just want to share my thoughts on bullying and I hope that teenagers read this blog post and seek out the help that they need.

I viewed some of Amanda's pictures and she seemed like a happy normal teenage girl in all of them for the most part. Of course we all know that cheerful smiles and cute posses can mask the pain that someone is going through. Cummings was heavily bullied in school and even had her possessions stolen from her by her bullies. I also understand that there was some cyber bullying action going on on facebook as well. I can no express how angry I get when I read articles about teens that kill themselves. I myself was heavily bullied in 10th and 12th grade. I went to high school in a very rural area both of these years and of course, the fact that I was a hispanic, alt. girl pretty much meant that I was a prime candidate for ridicule. Every day in class i was subjected to some sort of harassment. Girls would throw paper at me. people would constantly remind me how ugly I was, one girl in my biology class even called me a retard, I honestly think she thought I was mentally ill. That hurt me the most. I would run to my principle and teachers and tell them that I was being bullied but of course none of them every really cared. I always got the same response " Well I will talk to so and so, call them down to my office and talk to them about this issue".  All that would ever happen after that is that the person would get a "stern: talking to and then they were told to never do it again. Of course after they were sent to the office the bullying became worse because then they had a reason to be angry with me. I got them in trouble, I was a snitch, so now there would be no mercy for me.

I eventually started to abuse nyquil because I wanted to find away to forget about things for a while. Everytime someone at school would hurt me I would come home and drink a cup and a half of it and sleep until the next day would come. I just wanted to die and I felt like if I did no one would miss me, not even the boyfriend that I had at the time. I think the most hurtful thing was that my boyfriend and my friends rarely if ever stuck up for me. The only time someone would stick up for me was when I would start to cry in class. That was the most embarrassing part, is when people made me cry. I often started to pretend I was sick so that I would not have to go to school. My mom noticed that I would often come home crying. She ended up calling the principle and of course, he did not care much at all. But in 12th grade he all of a sudden started to care.. not towards my benefit however....

Sadly no major action ever takes place until one of the two things happens, the child that was being bullied takes their life OR the child that was being bullied ends up taking a gun to school and shooting all of their bullies. Then bullying becomes an issue. Only after it is too late to do anything about it. When I was in 12th and 10th grade I ended up fighting two of my bullies. I did not get in trouble for the first fight but my senior year I ended up getting suspended for a whole week. I was busted in the middle of that fight, a very large office assistant grabbed me by my arm, dragged me into the principles office and began to tell everyone that I violently attacked another student. I was crying at this point. I cried so much that I honestly thought I was going to throw up. The principle looked at me in disgust. I sat in the chair in front of his desk and was screaming and crying and he just gave me a cold stare. As if he was saying I DO NOT CARE. He automatically  started to put the blame on me and told me that my actions were inexcusable. The other girl did not even get sent to the office and here I sit, getting written up a suspension letter for 7 days plus saturday school. I was automatically sent to in school suspension and held there the whole day until the end of the day when my parents had to come pick me up because I was not allowed to ride the bus home. My parents were furious, not with me though, they were furious with the school administrators. My parents wanted to know why they were notified at the end of the day about this issue when it had happened first thing in the morning. My assistant principles excuse? "We had a pep rally today and things have been very busy around the school because of it" She began to tell my parents what happened, she told them that I tried to fight a teacher when he was restraining me which was not true, He claimed that I kicked him on purpose. Again not true. My dad asked what had caused the fight. I told him that the girl had thrown a hard object at the back of my head. My dad then told the principle that if that would have happened to him he would have punched someone's lights out as well. However the fact that I fought back was not seen as self defense, Apparently schools like to teach that all forms of violence are bad, even when it is in self defense. So basically what we are teaching kids is that if someone walks into your house with a gun and starts shooting at you, you should just stand there and await death instead of going to the closet and grabbing your shotgun and firing back. Anyways to make a long story short,  in the end I was seen as the "bully" and the other girl walked away scott free without any kind of disciplinary action what so ever. And as far as my "punishment" goes, being suspended for 7 days was what I wanted anyways, what kid doesn't want to stay home and listen to music all day long and not have to go to school to get picked on some more?

I think the worst form of bullying would be the kind that goes on online. Cyberbullying is a mass form of bullying and everyone on the internet can feel free to chime in. I myself have been a victim of this form of bullying. I especially remember this one time on myspace (back when people still used myspace) when a girl that bullied me wrote a blog post about me. She told everyone that I was "a dirty Indian and that I needed to go back to the country I cam from because I was nasty". One I am not indian, two I am not dirty, and three I was born in America. Had I seen something like this written about me today I would just shake it off an not care and find it funny. However when you are a teenager you re act to things very differently. I remember going to my room and crying the whole entire night. I cried until I started to feel sick. I will never forget that night even till this day. Cyberbullying is very hard to control even thought there have been laws passed that try to prevent and stop it from happening.

I think the worst part about bullying is the fact that the bullies often times do not know how much they are damaging a person. Till this very day I still feel worthless and ugly because of what people told me in 10th grade. Bullying will give someone self esteem issues for the rest of their life. Everyone likes to go by the old adage "sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me" but this is simply not true. Words do hurt. Sometimes they even hurt more than psychical damages. I feel like I should somehow become a part of the anti bullying movement but I am not exactly sure how I can help. I am not a famous person and most of the time people do not even care about what I have to say.

I just want to leave a message out to any teens that are going through this right now before I end this post. I want you to realize that half the time bullies are extremely jealous of you. It's either because you are smarter than them, prettier than them. or they just feel threatened by you because of their own insecurities.  No one should ever make you feel like you are less of a person because your nose is not the perfect size, or because your body is not "perfect" or because you are from a different ethnic background than they are. If you ever feel like killing yourself please just do not do it. Take a movement to realize what taking your life will do to not only you, but your family and your friends. Things do get better, sometimes it takes a while but they do! If you kill yourself you will never get to find that out. you will hurt your family and you will hurt your friends because they will always carry around the guilt of your suicide. School only lasts for so long and then its over with and people move on into the real world. I have actually had high school bullies come up to me in college and apologize for treating me the way they did. You would be surprised how many people actually feel remorse for being bullies. Often times kids only bully other kids because their friends all gang up on one person and they do not want to feel like they are being left out and they want to keep their friends so badly that they will do anything to ensure that they themselves do not become the outcast in school.

Hopefully one day a genuine solution will be found for all of this. I know we can never stop kids from bullying each other but we can prevent suicides if we just pay attention to the warning signs and intervene before it is too late.

This is a picture of the 15 year old girl who took her life. Today on facebook I am making her picture my profile picture in memorial of her life and of this tragic event.